I'm chilling at home when I get a call from Dani. She says it's an emergency. Despite my mothers protests, I grab the bus and meet her downtown. It sounded like she was going to have a nervous breakdown. I meet her and she gives me $2 so I can go with her up to her house. She talked about how spirits have been scaring her, to the point she wrote psalm 23 on her door which management did NOT like. I saw it and was like "Dani! Use CHALK!"
I finally got her to calm down and explain it to me all in full.
I gave her my blessing to join this church in 'Vilete. An apostolic church. I figured I should trust her if she feels this would be best for her.
She asked them to do a spiritual cleansing on her home after everything has been happening. They refused, saying that it is God telling her to get rid of her girlfriend. I shook my head. They preach hate, which is the last thing Dani needs. She needs love. Which is why despite my own personal reasons, I will be taking her to my church on Saturday.
Weird things always happen to me when I'm around Dani though. She always wants to learn, and know more, which kinda trips my mind into an overload. It is to a point, she gave me a book and I began writing like a fiend on religion, financial classes, and her music.
Im going to make her some more calming music. After reviewing all of her music, its all rock, rap and etc.
I have a thing of listening and feeling the core of the song. The message it is really trying to give you. Almost to feel the heart of the person and the passion they convey. I believe that everything has a spirit, even built objects because say someone gives a gift. They are giving a part of themselves to you in actuality because it is FROM THE HEART. Get what I'm saying? half the time I don't because all of these thoughts on so many levels just overflow from my mind when this kind of thing happens, and it excites me. If i don't get it out in words, it starts to hurt and torture me because my mind cannot handle so much.
So I'm going to give Dani some more feminine music, classical, and choir boy music. They have a gentler spirit and promote harmony in my opinion. My head still hurts from all the information that I had going through my head. She wants to learn book smarts and philosophy, and I would like to understand her point of view more so I can be more open to others. Its all a huge scenario I'm trying to explain and identify because everyday problems do not just happen to everyday people. Everyone loves the same music, and the worlds problems are everyone's problems. I don't know why I'm crying though. This is so sudden and yet I cant stop it. My father is playing " Thats what Friends are for" and I cant stop crying. Probably because when I was going for the 80, Dani insisted I take her water. Said she didn't need it. I ran and made the bus, and being winded, I took a sip of water without realizing it until i was mid sip, and smiled. no one needs to be as downtrodden as I am. I will work to make everyone understand each other in simple language that we all can understand. This is my Equivalent Exchange. josh let me talk to him on Monday, and I returned the favor to Dani and she will return it to someone else and so on and so on.
My head wants to think about what is wrong with everyone, but my heart just wants to help right now. Anyone, anywhere. I just wanna make people smile, and feel better. Calm their fears. Let them know someone does care.
Toodles
~a.f
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