After my last two posts, I was cranky, agitated, and VERY anti-social. I hung around some people and finally at 3 went to the theater and just started playing the piano. Just over and over teaching myself new songs by ear, and singing as loud as I could, knowing no one could hear me. The one that seemed to just keep going to the point I started playing it with my eyes shut was Zeldas theme from Ocarina of Time.
I was finally calm when I heard a small creek then the curtain move. I got up fearing it was a ghost and quickly moved away when Friggin Cooper stepped out. Well there goes my anonymity. I dozed throughout Acting because I was so tired. Now that I am home....I feel a little safer. Not that Im not just with people whom were very nice to drop me off at school and pick me up instead of having me walk, but also I am back in my space. My tranquil gardens *smile*
I will have to see a counsler about how my mind wants to switch into doomsday mode when it realizes that something is going to fail. Yeah....Madison used me. Has her prints and has no real intentions of helping me with mine. Dani never showed up (didn't expect her to though) and Ethan must still have Bronchitis.
10pm Hope your day was better. I'm so....ugh (tired lol)
Toodles
~a.f
4 comments:
Sweety, are you really this depressed? All of the time??? That is certainly not healthy, you know that! Have you considered talking to someone that is unbiased? This is there FOR you, to help you? Why don't you try reaching out to someone other than these losers that do nothing but use you? You need to see yourself in a different light. A brighter light. I will always be there for you if you need me. Find a mentor. Someone that is not a gamer, that is outside of your world as you know it so that you can see what else is out there. Love ya!
Its not that I was really depressed but I was upset to think everything I had planned got ruined
Yes, for this post, but all your blogs are depressed/suicidal sounding. I'm worried about you.
Yeah well....thats kinda why I blog. Its a place for me to vent and be like 'arrugh the world sucks' lol but its no worse than an EMOS diary. Granted I shouldnt take alot of stuff so seriously
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