Where I stand.

Alone, again. Am I emo? some say yes, others say no, I don't care for labels.

I removed the last post because it was not appropriate and it compromises other people.

But I shouldn't worry about other people. They don't worry about me, unless I am possibly interfering with what they want.

I had something that was bothering me, and I looked for one of my friends to talk to about it. I searched Myspace, Yahoo, AIM, Paltalk and Google....I wondered how I could have so many friends, but in all reality have none.

When did this happen? Its likely the way I treat myself that bugs people, but oh well. I cant be upset over it. I spent high school surrounded by people, but I knew none of them were a friend.

So there isnt anyone to laugh with or talk with, besides binary transformed into letters on a screen.


Thing is, Im not upset, even though its all ive been talking about. Its seems as though Ive lost the abillity to feel because it all happens so much. Friends talk to me, I help them, they leave, and half of the time either dont say anything or tell me never to talk to them again. Was it something I said? Did I do something to make you upset? Was there something I didnt give you?

I never know, and because I don't, I make the same mistakes over again. Now I begin to fear this blog because of what others may think.

They decide not to say anything,
it will all be fine.
Hiding from the world,
life turning on a dime.
But I will be here to watch you
when you fall,
for that is what you taught me,
and I have learned it all.