What is normal?

I have been reading stuff from other people. Watching videos, and looking at the twitter on various people and how their lives are. I am not trying to compare my life to theirs, but try to understand and the commonality over what is "Normal" or abnormal for that.

One person felt that Christmas was fine. Spent time with family and etc (the Commercial Christmas Card Day)

Another's was awful in their opinion. No matter how much they wanted to have a good day, the emotional needs of the people around them refused to let them do such (Blue Christmas)

The third......o-Oh... Well The Third is Jewish so they wont help much in this psychological study.

Please note, this is only examining one day. not past, not present, but Christmas itself and my search for a normal style of Christmas, seeing as my was non existent basically.

So, one would assume that no matter how much you fair during the year, that Christmas should be a day where you put all hardships aside and celebrate being with people you like or even love.

No one should be forced into any emotion it is noted though, wether forced to be happy or sad despite their own wishes.

If I may, Im going to stop consciously typing this in a way that people wont find offensive and go by instinct and what my mind really can see. its in images and color and feeling.....


In each hand a figure. Both worn, battered and chipped with the age of time. On the left. Cracks and chips painted over with department store paint, with a bland smile, and dark eyes. In the right hand, a chipped peice, a feeble smile, and sad eyes trying to repair its own cracks.

the left looks fine, but not quite reasonable yet. a few touches, the sudden paint job needing to be understood and it should begin to level off

the right needs help to patch up and clean off. Like that precious ornament you had and took care of for a very long time. It just needs some TLC.

Perhaps both do...

Being alone in boxes, pulled out only when someone wants to feel their warmth..... but be heart breaking.

I treasure both.

I made no sense did I? I'm sorry, the visions i see don't usually translate well.

To both the left and right. Both know who you are likely. I wish your Christmases could of been something else that you would of liked and made to cherish.

I'll see what I can do to make it up for the both of you.

~a.f