It's the third night in a row now....
Third night ive cried myself to sleep. Only this time I cant sleep.
It's over the same thing again. The lack of friends and people to love.
Am I really that evil that when I try to find someone to talk to, they either leave or pretend i dont exist?
Logically, I am the bad person if so many dont want to be near me.
Its so lonely though. To always be cast aside because you are NEVER what they want.
Never what anyone wants. Now I begin to hate even myself, because i know there must be something wrong if I cant even have friends who dont hate me, or insult me, or make fun of me or tell me im rude just for expressing myself.
Everyone tells me that. Have I really been this blind? I thought I was a good person. I tried to be what you all wanted. Dont you even know what you want?
All I know is that im alone and I cant find anyone, and it hurts so much, but either they dont care or its my fault.
Im sorry. im so sorry
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