Hmm..... How long till I stop breathing?

I am having issues breathing again. By now I've given up.

I watch Saw and people getting what they deserve because they punished their bodies for the hell of it or hurt other people.

I was awake struggling to breathe until 8am when I finally nodded off.

Woke up at noon beginning the whole choke, choke, sneeze, chest-rattle over again.

I was in no condition to go out let alone try an interview.

after choking and wheezing for 5 solid min I tell my mother 'im ok'

she just replies that i lost another job.

Its bad enough I feel like shit physically but dont try to mind fuck me.

I spent a half hour crying because I cant take it anymore. If i choke i wont be able to stop it

And now I dont think I want to.

Ill smoke my cigs and tell mother nature to do her fucking worse because death will be alot better than this

~ciao