meow ^. .^

ugh..... im so weary these days.

I have so much work to do but i can't get into it, having to work in a giant ass sketchbook that is impossible to handle properly to do 10 self portraits and 48 master studies i mean ugh!


well other than that, i'm hoping my previous work exp. is going to help me get this job at Cumberland Farms up the road from me. noon to 6. It could cause some issues when fall classes start, but thats another story. I might not even be going to the Valley next semester if my parents decide not to help me with financing.

Although, if I dont go in the fall I can continue to work and save my money to start moving to where I have to go. Let's face it, I can't live at home forever....thats just creepy.

I found out a few days ago Rachel has decided to move in July, not January. It kinda makes me depressed that I was able to find a great person then have to move on. I won't mope on it, because I know its not forever, but it does suck to realize that im not ready to move on as quickly as other people. However, now instead of the 'You gotta get your own place' she has begun saying 'You gotta go to Philli' *chuckle* wow....

Im not sure. I think after I lost Mary Kate, i've had to force myself to come to grips that I have to let people go (add moment- *gasp* RObot Chicken!- no...must....blog....(pout) ok, one sec!)

*watching Robot Chicken*
(10 min later)

ok, so what was i saying?

Oh yeah, letting people go. Yeah, I just have to remember to cherish the time i spend with people when I feel as lonely as i get.

I had a really odd dream the other night, I have no idea what it means though:

I was out on my own and I was waiting for a bus or walking, either way it was a warm day, and I was walking with my backpack on. A girl drove up, and offered to give me a ride. She was driving a car exactly like my fathers. She started driving kinda fast, and taking tight corners like most people who own VW's do, when we got to a very large lake with a bridge across it. She started driving but took the turn so tight, we started going in the lake. She told me it was ok, and started driving forward when the water got up so high, i had to bail out of the car.

Next thing I know, im pushing this car out of the lake. The windows were rolled up, so the inside wasn't damaged. However, the cabin pressure damaged the body, and when i checked my stuff, my inhaler was smashed. I tried getting it repaired or replaced, but no one would help me... a-holes.

I have no idea what it means.

I'm gonna be going out with Rachel for her birthday tommorow. It's going to be one of the last times I can really hang out with her until she leaves for Italy. I used y survey points to grab her 25 American Eagle points. I took surveys and gained points and **taah daah!!** ^__^

I almost got the perfect lol cats pic of my bros cat, Felix. he had his upper paws on the flower box and looked like he was taking a piss.

blog it laterz

--Fluty